Monday, November 12, 2007

When You've Already Said Goodbye

This is a poem I have written for my Grandpa Baird (Ralph McGilvery Baird). I hope it may say some of what he may be thinking right now:

If life is a pathway to eternity,
I have been traveling the last mile for the last few years.
It feels as though my feet are treading on the smoothest ground,
yet I feel as though the spring in my step is gone.
I used to walk along this path without any assistance,
and at times I carried others across the dips and hills in their pathways.
However, now I take frequent stops to catch my breath,
and I seem to be covering no distance.

The world goes on and buzzes around me
like bees buzzing in a hive.
You have no reason stay amid the stress
when you've already said goodbye.

The companions I have met along the way
have shaped me into who I am.
I have served in a time of war
and have seen the ugliness that hate can bring.
But, I have also gained strength from the lessons learned
on my own defending my countries freedoms.
I have taught the youth of this great land
and hoped and prayed they will exceed our grasp.

The world keeps spinning from day to day
like the records June and I would play.
You have no reason to stop and dance
When you've already said goodbye.

This mortal shell is weak,
yet I know clearer than ever the truths of this great life.
My spirit is strong within this old body,
and I would yell the thoughts of my heart if the breath was in me.
I have fought a good fight as Paul would say;
I have given my all to His cause.
My family has grown to numbers I could have never imagined;
Each tender heart aches for me and I wish that I could tell them.

I walked this pathway of life to live with all of you for eternity.
Death has no sting for me through Christ our Lord.
You have no reason to fear the next great step
when you've already said goodbye.

Friday, November 2, 2007

Olympic Gold Dreams

I like to run. It is a hobby of mine. I am not a super fast runner and I don't run everyday. I run three times a week for a little over 3 miles each day. Everyone else is asleep and I run and listen to my music. It is a very nice and peaceful time where I think about things I need to do, goals I have, etc...

Then, a few days ago I was running my regular route (through the neighborhoods where I live) when I heard a noise in the bushes. It sounded like two animals were in a vicious bloodthristy brawl. They weren't squirrels and they also sounded bigger than cats. Maybe a couple of dogs?

The sounds keep getting closer and closer to me. Keep in mind that I am listening to my music and can still here this very well. I finally decide to look down and I see that I am running over a sewer grate and this big angry sewer creature is clawing at me and coming out at me. This was the last thing I expected and my legs just take off. I had a burst of speed that a steroid-filled olympic sprinter would have died for. I could have made Carl Lewis look like Mr. Bean in those seconds that followed the discovery of the ferocious sewer monster.

Okay, so I look back over my shoulder as I am making this record breaking sprint and I see more of the body of this monster as it is crawling out of the sewer grate to determine if it wants to run after me. Its teeth are bared and I am definitely not sticking around.

At that moment when I felt like I was a safe distance, I realized I was so full of adrenaline that I could have thrown a semi truck like the Incredible Hulk.



Now, I have to be a honest here. The ferocious sewer monster was probably a big raccoon or possum (my guess is a raccoon). Obviously, I was on its territory. Luckily, I survived and maybe even realized my Olympic Gold Dreams. Ummm....if any one has this encounter on video please let me know. I would have loved to be a bystander of this whole ordeal.

Actually, I just found this picture on-line (no joke!!) and it is exactly what I am talking about except the raccoon was growling and there was plenty of gnashing of teeth. This raccoon also appears to be in some sort of a trap, poor thing.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

I am now a producer!!

I finally made a video! My wife has been an expert at this for quite some time and it looked like fun. So, I asked her to show me how to do it. It only took about 15 minutes or so and now I am ready to make a video of anything. I did start off small. I just did a few pictures from our last Family Home Evening (FHE). I told the story of the Anti-Nephi-Lehis who were a group of people who had been a bloodthirsty and evil people misguided by the traditions of their wicked parents. They were converted to the gospel of Jesus Christ through a missionary named Ammon.

After they were converted to the the Lord, they buried their weapons in the ground and promised God they would never raise their weapons again to hurt anyone. This promise cost them about 1,000 of their numbers when they were attacked by their own people who did not like that they had converted to the Lord. However, while they were being killed without defending themselves because of their promise to God, many of their brethren had a change of heart and were also converted to the Lord. In fact, their numbers were increased by more than they had lost that day. The Ammonites were sad that they had lost so many of their brethren, but they knew that those who died were righteous and they would live with God forever.

Our FHE included relating this story to our lives and burying our weapons of war. We defined our weapons of war as things that we did that we shouldn't. We wrote these items on paper swords and went to bury them in the backyard. For example, Miranda wrote that she would not tease her brother anymore. She is very good at teasing her brother and we were happy to see her decide to do that on her own. We went and buried all of our swords in the backyard and promised Heavenly Father we would not do them again. We had a fun time and it was a very learning-filled experience for all of us. If you have good FHE ideas, please share. Enjoy the video.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Weird People


Now, don't get me wrong. I consider myself an extremely weird person. Although I would classify myself as a goofy, silly, I-know-I-am-different kind of weird. I think my wife would attest to this and most of the people who know me. However, do you know people who have no grasp on reality? Oddly enough - are most of these people co-workers or family? For me, I won't get too specific although no one reads my secret blog anyway.

I know an individual (that sounds safe enough) who has complete detachment from reality. She (uh oh, I am losing vagueness) has been literally brainwashed by her crazy boyfriend. What is with intelligent women and choosing and staying with deadbeat boyfriends? I am sure this will be a topic for another blog another day. Anyway, she believes that her social security number is a satanic government number meant to lead people down to hell.

This is just the beginning. I could go on and on for days. I won't. I don't like talking about people that much even I am not using their name. But, I am blown away by what people will believe with little or no evidence, yet when some things are presented with a lot of evidence - they don't believe.

So, what may be weird that you believe in or do? I have tried to scour my life in order to see what weirdness I may have. Here is a brief list:

1. I have a collection of action figures (a rather large one). Although this hobby is perfectly acceptable among enthusiasts - not too socially acceptable.
2. I enjoy reading comic books. I definitely would take a well written comic series to a tv show.
3. I can quote most of LOTR (you should be able to figure that one out) and Star Wars.
4. Actually, I pretty much fall into most of the categories of Weird Al's White and Nerdy song.
5. I pronounce some words differently. I used to say ungin for onion. I have corrected that one. I am trying to perfect miracle. I tend to want to say mare-icle.
6. Don't get me started on funky medical things I have had (shingles twice, spots, bald spots on my head, moving bald spots on my face, lypomas on back, gall stones, constant cancer sores).

I will stop there as any further mentioning of my weirdness will cause my wife to rethink her marriage choice (only reader of my blog anyway)! Come on, share your weirdness.
By the way, this is my son, Logan, being himself. I don't know where he gets it??

Friday, September 28, 2007

Big Thoughts in Our Little World


I was driving to work yesterday and the moon was huge. It just sat there in its full glory and looked pretty magnificent. It really hit me how large it really was. Then it hit me how small the moon must be in comparison to the sun. Then I remembered an e-mail I had been sent recently that showed planets represented in size to one another by balls of clay. The earth looked pretty big until the next picture had the size of the sun and then the sun compared to other suns or stars. I was literally lost in space trying to grasp how large the universe is and how small I am.

I was running in the early morning a few days ago and saw the stars more clearly than I had in a long time. I was taken back by how immense the sky and the heavens are. With all of the order in the universe and with this world and others, how could there not be a Great Creator. A Master Painter to these skylines. A skilled artisan who understands the end from the beginning. One who can see the whole of all space and time and is not limited to our finite understanding and vision.

Society thinks to create a great television show is masterful. I say it is shameful when compared to the splendor of morning's glory. Even more insignificant when compared to the great creation of the earth we live on. Now, try and wrap your mind around when all space and time began. Who started it all? Who put the players of our existence in motion and what came before them?

Only when we realize how unintelligent we are do we have a sip of true knowledge. Only when we realize how weak we are do we understand just a little about real strength. Only when we look beyond ourselves do we meet true love. Only when we care for others more than we care for ourselves do we realize who we truly are. And, only when we understand who we truly are will we comprehend how easy it is to destroy. But, to create is divine.

If you don't believe me - bring a child into the world. You will never be closer to God in this life then when you take that newborn child into your arms and you see pure innocence. A new canvas. I only pray I have some strength to be the father, teacher, supporter, and caregiver it takes for my children to understand the greatness from which they come - and, the excellence they can achieve through Jesus Christ.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

The Choice

There are times in a man's life when he has to make a choice that shapes him and really helps him to become the man he should be. There are times when temptation is so real that your mind says yes so loud you can't hear your heart. Some times choices can ruin you forever....

I had such a choice the other day. I had just gotten out of the shower and went to put on my deoderant and it wasn't there. It all came flooding back to me. Yesterday, I had used the last little bit of my deoderant and threw it in the garbage. I determined to remember to go to Target that evening and buy some new stuff. I had forgotten.

Many things raced through my head at that moment like, "How far away is the garbage I through it in?", and "Could I scrape any more off the applicator if I did find it?" Then, the weirdest thought came to my head. Just use April's (my beautiful wife). She will never know and you may actually smell a little better. Then, I remembered those "PH Balanced for a Woman" commercials and wondered what that meant if men used it.

My head was spinning and I was working on the pros and cons list in my head as fast as I could. Do I take the chance of being smelly like a girl? I could always say my wife must have brushed up against me if anyone could smell it. Doing it only one time wouldn't hurt me. "No one would ever find out" I told myself. I had to make a choice.....to wear the wife's deoderant or to go naturally fresh all day.

Although the temptation was great to succomb to the urges to always wear some sort of deoderant, I wore nothing. I am proud to say I didn't wear women's deoderant that day. I am also glad that even my wife didn't notice. Mark one up for the Jerster.

Snippety-Snip

After several years of paying for cable television - we finally cut it off. Don't get me wrong, we have almost always only had the basic package for some time, but we cut it all off. I haven't missed it one single moment. I found that it was a time sucking vortex - and I don't even watch tv that much. My pitfall would be after the kids go to bed and I just want to unwind and not think a little while before I go to bed. So, I flip on the teli with the intent to watch a show or so before climbing in bed. I watch the first show and then stumble upon a murder mystery special or a documentary. I watch that and then I see something interesting on the news, so I would wait up to see that. Then I would realize I could get all the scores from the day's sports events in just a few minutes. Then it would just be a little longer until Leno and Letterman and I can turn the channel back and forth to get the funniest parts. By the end of these nights (not as often as I might portray it, but enough), it was 1am or so before going to bed and my wife has been asleep on the couch for a couple of hours.

I would be tired the next day and really feeling silly that I had stayed up so late. I would not do it for a few nights and then I would be back. April and I had pretty much finished the New Testament a month ago or so and we started reading the Doctrine and Covenants. We also started reading a great book by Randal Wright called "25 Mistakes LDS Parents Make and How to Avoid Them". We started discussing the media and decided we could live without cable. I canceled the service the next day. Life is great!

I recommend it to everyone. Just do it and see what happens. One of two things will happen. 1. You will notice how great it is and the time you have to do other things that may be more enriching to your life. Or, 2. you can get a great deal coming back to a service on your favorite cable package. I don't think I will ever go back and I am grateful for it.

Sunday, July 8, 2007

Retirement

This has been on my mind lately. Not because I want to retire right now, but because I want to start planning for it now. If I really start to think about the actual numbers - I am completely overwhelmed. The conversation in my head usually starts like this:

Mind: What age do you want to retire at?

Mouth: 55

Mind: How long do you expect to live?

Mouth: I would guess I will live into my 90's possibly. My first grandparent just passed away earlier this year and he was 98 years old. My other grandparents are all in their 90's and none of them are in a state where they can't get around. So....I will say 90 years old. Of course, I also know if I keep employing ice cream makers around the world, I may leave this earth a lot sooner.

Mind: That is 35 years to live off of your retirement!

Mouth: I know (slightly annoyed tone)!

Mind: Good luck, dude!

This is the part where I get overwhelmed and put off thinking about it seriously a little longer. Especially when I begin to contemplate what some of the next questions may be. How much money do I have in a retirement now? How much do I need to live off of it for 35 years? How much savings do I have right now? Can I pay off a home before I retire? What lifestyle changes must I make now in order to properly save for retirement, college, and missions for my children? What am I ready to give up? Will my kids want to and be accepted to BYU?

The list goes on and on. They are questions that need to be answered regardless of how young I am if I want a secure future. Soon I will be answering all of these questions because I refuse to put it off any longer. Wish me luck!

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Christmas in July!

My wife can really get into things at home. Most of the time it is a good book that she just can't put down. I could come home from work, change my clothes, and have dinner cooked and ready to eat before she knew I was home. That is how engrossed she can become in a fine piece of literature. That is also why she can read books in two days that would take me two months to read (She always finishes the Harry Potter books first!!!). The other attention culprit is scrapbooking. Scrapbooking is great because I will come home to find my bedroom looking like the inside of a shred bin with my wife somewhere inside. However, she makes great scrapbooks for the kids.

Today was the best of both worlds for her and she was in heaven. It was the perfect combination of fine literature and scrapbooking - the NEW Stampin' Up catalog. I knew this was going to be a big deal when she mentioned something about it yesterday and wondering if she may get the catalog at church. Well, the catalog came in and she got it at church. I don't know if she has put it down since. I know in her mind she is figuring how much she can buy for the cheapest price. She is wondering what I could do as a second job to help pay for all of the things she would like.

I don't mind though. I love to see my wife get excited about little things. Mainly because I get excited about little things all of the time. A new action figure. A well written book or comic book. Finishing a long book. Coming home and finding a picked up house. Seeing the A's win. The list could really go on and on.

So, I am saving my pennies to pay for all of the items on the already well read and dog eared pages of the Stampin' Up catalog.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Hammered


Sometimes as a parent you feel like you are in a game of Clue. You are confronted with a situation and you have to figure how out how it was done and who did it with what weapon (or toy). This "who-dunnit" game to find out what happened can really be difficult sometimes because everyone wants to blame everyone else. You have to go to the crime scene and investigate and look for clues to help you solve the mystery. And...then there is my son Logan (4). Logan is a great kid (and my only boy), but he also tends to be a boy and thinks that he can push the limits with his sisters. He tends to see how hard he can hit them before they will cry? How much can he tease and chase them before the girls will come tell mom or dad? All of that good stuff about childhood. He is close to getting his P.H.D. in this subject.


This afternoon, Miranda (6) and Hannah (2) came to me holding their foreheads. Miranda told me that Logan had hit them in their foreheads with his toy hammer. Oh boy, time to go talk to Logan and have him put the hammer away and sit on his bed for awhile. I started back to his bedroom which was the scene of the crime and wondered how many pieces of the mystery would I have to find on my own, how many times Logan would deny the offense before he cracked, and the usual parent detective stuff. All of the sudden I hear Logan yell from his bedroom, "Dad! I put the hammer away and I am getting on my bed!" Am I that predictable? I am not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. Anyway, mystery solved without any investigation - Logan - Hammer - Bedroom - Case closed (or, at least mostly closed).


Here is my favorite part. I went into Logan's room to talk to him about what he did and find out why he did it. This also is a common practice of mine. Logan has this habit of forgetting why he is in trouble, so I just want to make sure he remembers. The conversation went like this:


Me: Logan? Do you know why you are on your bed?


Logan: Yes, Daddy. I hit Miranda, Hannah, and Haylie (she was in a different room at the time, but I think he was covering all his bases) in the head with my hammer.


Me: That is correct. Why would you hit them with your hammer, Logan?


Logan: Ummmmm.....


Me: Logan, why?


Logan: Because I thought they were nails.


It took all of my inner strength to not laugh my head off at this point and I was not sure I could keep it in. I struggled through the next minute or so before I told him I would have to come back in a minute. Wow! That was a good laugh. I am not totally convinced he did not see them as nails in his mind. I think he has one of those minds like the lion in Madagascar that looks at the other animals and sees big steaks. I would love to walk around in his mind for a few miutes (just a few). He keeps us on our toes.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

Summer Movies

I love summer for its horrid heat and scorching afternoons while my PG and E bill hits the roof.....wait that is why I don't like summer. I DO like summer because of all the awesome movies that I have been waiting all year to come out are released!! Here is my take on some of the year's blockbusters (keep in mind that I am partial to movies based on comic books and I don't watch anything rated R or looks like I would regret having watched). Now that you know that I don't see many movies during the year - here is my report. One more note, I will rate the movie by how much of my ten dollars it was worth to go and see:

TMNT - I took my oldest two kids to this movie and my wife. I loved it. I am glad the turtles are back in animation (computer animation is a nice and needed upgrade) because it opens them up to a lot more creative story lines and ninja moves. I loved the stone warriors and a lot of the new characters they introduced (Max Winters, Shredder's daughter). I think the turtle storylines of other movies have played enough on the Rafael is a rebel storyline and they should move on from there, but otherwise very good. This movie was worth nine of my dollars.

Next - I went to this one with a group of guy friends (Umm - I think it had something to do with Jessica Biel and our wives not wanting to see us drool). This movie was very entertaining and had a good pace. Jessica Biel's role was a little weak and I kept waiting for her to take on some of the action. It did not happen. I liked the premise of the story but some of the plot threads were weakened by Nicholas Cage's narrow ability to see the future. Julianne Moore was pretty unconvincing as a tough FBI agent but likeable in her role. It was definitely a unique story line. This movie was worth about six of my dollars.

Spiderman 3 - I went to this one with my wife on a date and it was opening night. I loved it! I am a huge Spiderman fan and I liked what was presented. I have heard the movie catch a lot of flack from people but I think it is undeserved. A lot of changes are made in comic book movies and that is just the way it goes to make years of comics solid for the movies. I thought S3 did a great job of introducing Sandman and Venom and giving us another Goblin with a twist. I kept expecting Gwen Stacey to die but she did not, but that was my only surprise. I think Tobey Maguire is a clever Peter Parker and pulls off his character well. Remember - Peter Parker is a geek. He is the kid you picked on in school and did not do well in social situations. Add to that super powers and you have a confused and torn kid. This movie was worth all ten of my bucks.

Shrek 3 - I took my two oldest to see this movie. This is a good old fashioned Shrek movie with lots of laughs for everyone and a good message. I loved the idea of the plot and the anticpation of seeing Shrek and Fiona's kids. This movie is about being comfortable being you and stepping up to do things you didn't think you could do. All of the great people from the past stories are back including some new great ones like Merlin and Artie. In classic Shrek fashion, the last half of the movie is packed with action and tight situations the characters must escape from. This movie was worth all ten of my bucks.

POTC At World's End - I went to see this one with my brother since finding a sitter is a little hard right now with a newborn (don't worry my wife has now seen it also). I loved this movie. It wraps up the trilogy nicely and again adds some new characters that make it interesting. The most interesting ones are Sao Feng who is one of the pirate lords and Jack Sparrow's father played by Keith Richards. The movie is funny and intense as are the previous two movies. I would have changed one small detail at the end but other than that I thought it was great. The plot is a little complicated and keeping track of who is betraying who can be a little overwhelming. Make sure you stay all the way through the end of the credits for an extra scene. This movie was definitely worth all of my ten dollars.

I am drooling about what is around the corner. Expect reviews from FF2, Transformers, and HP Order of the Phoenix in the near future. Yoda says "See all of these movies you will, but skip "next" - you may want to."

Girls,girls,girls.....


I never thought I would be surrounded by so much pink in my life. Pink clothes, purses, high heels, and the pretend make up - that is what my world has become! My first daughter came and I was sooo excited. Then we had a boy and I was totally thrilled. Someone to throw the ball with, get into trouble with, and collect action figures with. Then - we had two more girls, at the same time. I can handle that. I have one girl and I am sure it is not too much different. Also, I was almost sure that the next one would be a boy. We decided to not find out the gender on the next baby and let it be a surprise. Oh - it was! I was so convinced that the baby was a boy. I was in shock when the doctor told us it was a girl!!!! Four daughters and one son. A curve ball from life.

I am really excited though. I really don't care which we had I was just in a lot of shock. Truth is that I love my daughters. I love being their father and having them look to me to save the day. I also look forward to having to purchase some dead stuffed animal heads to hang on the wall and a big shotgun for when they start dating. I also look forward to all of the practical jokes that my son and I can play on the girls and their mother. It is hard to always be the one catching all of the blame so I am thankful that my son will be there.

Here is the latest update on names and ages of the kids:

Miranda, 6 years old
Logan, 4.5 years old
Haylie, 2 years old
Hannah, 5 minutes younger than Haylie's two years old
Lauren, 1 week old

By the way, my wife is the BOMB!! Lauren Grace weighed in at 10 pounds 5 ounces and my wife had no pain medication. I couldn't have done it. I think I would have taken the pain meds and watched a good movie (maybe the whole LOTR trilogy if labor was that long). Anyway, my life is now a center for the female powers. I have many years ahead of dresses, clothes shopping, being called goofy, and I will be loving every minute of it!

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Welcome to my universe!!

You may want to stop reading at this point if you are not ready for what will follow. On yodabytes you will read bits of wisdom and chunks of abnormal thinking from a father, husband, and businessman. I will draw from my vast experiences to bring you draughts of nothingness to lighten your day or make you go hmmm. More than anything else, I will rant, rave, and brag.

I do have some strange hobbies and interests for a person who is a serious businessman and father of almost five. For instance, I like reading comic books here and there. I also collect action figures and have a fairly large collection which takes up a corner of our garage. It's my hobby.

I love hanging out with my wife and kids. I don't really feel there is anything else worthy of my time other than serving God. We have a lot of fun together and sometimes get a little crazy.

I love to read and I am always coming up with wierd business ideas and book ideas. Someday, I would like to write children's books. I am just putting in my time right now working for the man.

There is the beginning......stay tuned for the middle.